Why do this and other more important thoughts
Ok, so this is the third time I have started to write something on this space. After writing fairly long essays the first two times, something came up and I would have to give up the quest half way. Interesting that I would call it a quest because of the effort and thought I actually have to put into writing something.
I can think of more reasons to shut down this blog than to keep it running, but somewhere in my head, I see a wag of the finger to doing that. I guess there is some good in that. I ought to commit to SOMETHING apart from my car.
Anyway, its been a couple of weeks since I went out with AS. It was a truly amazing evening (Valentine's eve at that) complete with candle-lit dinner and drinks. A date (does she know that?) I will remember for a long time, even if it is the only one we ever have, mostly because it was the easiest and least-awkward.
In the four meetings we've had, she has become the lightning bolt that permeated the steet and concrete-reinforced walls of my life (such poetic descriptions, awful!). I would love to see this go somewhere amazing. After swearing off Indian women for not having anything left in common with, not to mention, how high-maintenance they often end up being...it was refreshing to meet someone who I could talk to and relate to so effortlessly, where there is so much in common, unbelievably easy conversation and laughlines I could die for. :)
I see myself change in all this. Six months ago, the state of the union (i.e. ME) looked pretty bleak. And while I do not care to dwell on the details, suffice it to say, that is one of the many moments in my life I no longer care to relive. And fortunately, since I am blissfully employed, I never have to because I am over the hump of getting the first job. Today I am cheerful, confident and NOT second-guessing every decision I make. Since I made the choice to leave Denver, all the over-arching decisions of my life have (knock on wooden, desperately-needs-to-be-polished floor) worked out in my favor. But more important than that, I KNEW them to be the right decisions in my gut. And so does AS.
The only difference is, this choice LITERALLY has a mind of its...or rather...her own. I just have to know when to bet against the house and WIN.
More on those lines, I have finally done it. Just the possibility of a future has done it for me. It took months of saying I'll do it, months of saving up for it, days of mental preparation and one evening to finally sign up...but I have officially joined the gym (again). Fingers crossed, this time it will stick!
Wish me luck!
I can think of more reasons to shut down this blog than to keep it running, but somewhere in my head, I see a wag of the finger to doing that. I guess there is some good in that. I ought to commit to SOMETHING apart from my car.
Anyway, its been a couple of weeks since I went out with AS. It was a truly amazing evening (Valentine's eve at that) complete with candle-lit dinner and drinks. A date (does she know that?) I will remember for a long time, even if it is the only one we ever have, mostly because it was the easiest and least-awkward.
In the four meetings we've had, she has become the lightning bolt that permeated the steet and concrete-reinforced walls of my life (such poetic descriptions, awful!). I would love to see this go somewhere amazing. After swearing off Indian women for not having anything left in common with, not to mention, how high-maintenance they often end up being...it was refreshing to meet someone who I could talk to and relate to so effortlessly, where there is so much in common, unbelievably easy conversation and laughlines I could die for. :)
I see myself change in all this. Six months ago, the state of the union (i.e. ME) looked pretty bleak. And while I do not care to dwell on the details, suffice it to say, that is one of the many moments in my life I no longer care to relive. And fortunately, since I am blissfully employed, I never have to because I am over the hump of getting the first job. Today I am cheerful, confident and NOT second-guessing every decision I make. Since I made the choice to leave Denver, all the over-arching decisions of my life have (knock on wooden, desperately-needs-to-be-polished floor) worked out in my favor. But more important than that, I KNEW them to be the right decisions in my gut. And so does AS.
The only difference is, this choice LITERALLY has a mind of its...or rather...her own. I just have to know when to bet against the house and WIN.
More on those lines, I have finally done it. Just the possibility of a future has done it for me. It took months of saying I'll do it, months of saving up for it, days of mental preparation and one evening to finally sign up...but I have officially joined the gym (again). Fingers crossed, this time it will stick!
Wish me luck!
